I cannot sleep at all tonight. I have been sitting in my bed for about an hour listening to other people moving about in the apartment above mine.
Well, I figure I can give a bit more detail about what has been happening with me.
I officially finished my first semester of grad school last month. Only a couple more years to go!
The period right before the exam period was so stressful. I actually suffered from a case of shingles due to stress. I had no idea young people could get shingles, did you?
The exam period was absolutely killer. I really wasn’t living those last few weeks. I spent hours in the library and my apartment simply became the location where I showered and traded books.
Looking back, I know my area of study has an initial, steep learning curve, but those last weeks of school were miserable. The holiday break was a welcome relief.
Home was nice. I saw my mom and the rest of the family. It still felt a bit empty without my grandmother, who passed away over a year ago. We went to her grave on Christmas Day to see her, but whenever we go over there–it feels like she was just here. It just seems strange to think the world keeps going on without her. But it does–and it will.
I made it back to campus without incident, even with the awful weather going on at the moment. I know that for this upcoming semester, I really have to focus on keeping my stress levels in check. The “responsible side” of me knows that I need to be conscientious about my health and well-being. At the same time, “the self-interested” side of me is scared that I might get a shingles rash on my face the next time I let stress get the better of me. >_>
I don’t have much to report on the dating front. Sometimes, I just want to delete my profile, but other times, I just feel like I can roll with the punches–but the fact that I haven’t deleted the profile yet must say something.
Dare I say it, I have started messaging guys that I like. I have discarded my old rule. If I see a profile I really like, I have this nagging feeling at the back of my mind that just tells me that I should send a message, because you never know, right? Well, I have not been successful at all with this approach, but at least I tried.
My last bit of news was that my college crush got married on Saturday. I’m happy for him, but there was a twinge in my heart when I saw his wedding pictures with his new wife pop up on Facebook.